What happened between he and me'd been over since the day in gloomy January..
And clearly I knew.
But, I just made the same mistake: bringing him back to my day & my society *again*.
which was totally wrong!
...Although it's been long time after the day,
I still have the feeling, but out of this,
everything's much different, he's changed, the situation's changed, and I should change.
Keeping this feeling is such a good thing,
but, keeping him around me is NOT.
After this, I'll literally have a new society..
I can say, "It's the time!"
Build the new sand-castle without anything about him around.